[ He's running out of cope, never of will for his brother or his brother's words. Even if he hates, so much, how weak he must look, right now. His brother deserves better. Xichen ties to pull himself together again, at least a little. ]
I will be all right. I am aware that he wants more than he ought to. I am sorry that you had to witness that, but I thought keeping what we talk a secret would be far, far worse.
[ It's not even that the things between himself and Meng Yao are the way things are between Wangji and young master Wei. He does love the man, he does, he's tried not to and that hasn't worked, but it's not...
It's not the same.
And yet on the other hand, it is. Both at the same time. ]
I am only human.
But no, that is not something I'm thinking of. Or waiting for him to become better for, or... anything like that. I merely want him to be someone who is ... at least a little bit the kind gentle person he always pretended to be. Someone who'll deserve respect for his actions, as well as his existence.
Someone who can be happy, even. Not at the expense of others.
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I will be all right. I am aware that he wants more than he ought to. I am sorry that you had to witness that, but I thought keeping what we talk a secret would be far, far worse.
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You asked that I witness with you.
Has he made other attempts?
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Desperation.
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So, perhaps it is.
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There’s a longer pause as he tries to decide what to reply.
But in they end, they share the same blood. The same weakness.
However, there is no Cloud Recesses here to retreat to with forlorn and hopeless love. ]
He is not worthy of you.
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It's not the same.
And yet on the other hand, it is. Both at the same time. ]
I am only human.
But no, that is not something I'm thinking of. Or waiting for him to become better for, or... anything like that. I merely want him to be someone who is ... at least a little bit the kind gentle person he always pretended to be. Someone who'll deserve respect for his actions, as well as his existence.
Someone who can be happy, even. Not at the expense of others.
I don't intend to be a bargaining chip in this.
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If he acts again, tell me.
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I'll tell you. Hiding will not help anyone.
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Do you require my presence?
[ For calming music. Or just for company. ]
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I was thinking of going out to play in the park. Meditate.
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I will complete my current duties and join you.
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[ Except before he gets the chance, Xichen sends a picture of a man in white with a blindfold. In the park, sitting on a bench. ]
Wangji. Is this who I think it is?
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Daozhang Xiao.
Xiao Xingchen.
He’s here?
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I will take him home, if he agrees. He
This is unexpected.
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I have read Jin Ling's testimony.
[ So he knew the sorry fate that Xiao Xingchen met. ]
Is he alone?
Last memory?
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He's with you now?
Would you prefer privacy?
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