[Sizhui considers his answer. Each question carefully chosen to evaluate his progress on his cultivation. Searching for the right words. He doesn't mean to offend, but rather to ask and search for the answers.]
[Stating simply.] Jin Ling returns home and Father as well. [Even though he's tend to be a silent teacher who speaks only in few words, but they're profound.] Senior Wei also. I feel like lessons is missing their warmth. So, my own darkness drains me. I know it's absurd to grieve for their absence, but I am grieving. That's what holding me back in my training.
[He realized the lessons are not fun at times. The lessons are meant to perfect one's cultivation, to overcome difficulties, to train's one spirit to overcome emotions and mind over matter, both mentally and physically.] Last I asked of Father, he has given three days, which is generous, and then I was able to continue the lessons because of his encouragement and with diligence and vigor. I don't feel like my cultivation levels has gone lower or lesser, and I resume where I left off.
[Searching his thoughts to articulate his thoughts. Of course, there's a reason why they have to keep going with the lessons. It's the only time the family spend time together.] Jingyi and I probably have no problem picking up where we left off since we were taught since we're able to walk, talk, and write. But I think it would be much harder on Miu because she just started a few months ago, and she misses Father terribly.
If Jingyi and I return home [as returning back to this one maybe slim, but Sizhui is a case where he does return and remembers], we will meet again, back to our village. But should Miu will return back to hers, not remembering any of this. Though I'm sure in her heart and soul, she'll remember us for all time no matter what worlds we're in.
[So Sizhui rethinks his request and puts up three fingers] Three [personal] days of grievance for us. That's my request.
[ Xichen's face eases, because yes, Sizhui understands, and he nods. ]
That is reasonable, and granted. I will attempt to draw in another teacher to supplement what I can offer, if he is willing, by the time we resume.
[ He reaches to squeeze Sizhui's shoulder. ]
Remember that the classes are not to make the darkness stronger, but to give you the protection of progress, of companionship, and of the support of teachers against it, instead. Coming together makes the dispelling of darkness, within and without, easier than going alone.
Miu's grief is deeper than that for the rest of us - I will speak to her, as well.
But you should remember this as well. Even if the separation now, the absence of both men who raised you, puts pain in your heart, do not let it forget that Wangji and young master Wei are there, as well. Always with you, as you are always with them.
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[Stating simply.] Jin Ling returns home and Father as well. [Even though he's tend to be a silent teacher who speaks only in few words, but they're profound.] Senior Wei also. I feel like lessons is missing their warmth. So, my own darkness drains me. I know it's absurd to grieve for their absence, but I am grieving. That's what holding me back in my training.
[He realized the lessons are not fun at times. The lessons are meant to perfect one's cultivation, to overcome difficulties, to train's one spirit to overcome emotions and mind over matter, both mentally and physically.] Last I asked of Father, he has given three days, which is generous, and then I was able to continue the lessons because of his encouragement and with diligence and vigor. I don't feel like my cultivation levels has gone lower or lesser, and I resume where I left off.
[Searching his thoughts to articulate his thoughts. Of course, there's a reason why they have to keep going with the lessons. It's the only time the family spend time together.] Jingyi and I probably have no problem picking up where we left off since we were taught since we're able to walk, talk, and write. But I think it would be much harder on Miu because she just started a few months ago, and she misses Father terribly.
If Jingyi and I return home [as returning back to this one maybe slim, but Sizhui is a case where he does return and remembers], we will meet again, back to our village. But should Miu will return back to hers, not remembering any of this. Though I'm sure in her heart and soul, she'll remember us for all time no matter what worlds we're in.
[So Sizhui rethinks his request and puts up three fingers] Three [personal] days of grievance for us. That's my request.
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That is reasonable, and granted. I will attempt to draw in another teacher to supplement what I can offer, if he is willing, by the time we resume.
[ He reaches to squeeze Sizhui's shoulder. ]
Remember that the classes are not to make the darkness stronger, but to give you the protection of progress, of companionship, and of the support of teachers against it, instead. Coming together makes the dispelling of darkness, within and without, easier than going alone.
Miu's grief is deeper than that for the rest of us - I will speak to her, as well.
But you should remember this as well. Even if the separation now, the absence of both men who raised you, puts pain in your heart, do not let it forget that Wangji and young master Wei are there, as well. Always with you, as you are always with them.