[Xichen sounds so done with him. It frightens him that, one day, he might push this gentle, beautiful man out of his life entirely. So Meng Yao takes the pause to think. He needs to show his love - show himself changing - or Xichen will rightly think he is doing more of the same.]
I've never thought much about that.
But I will.
[How many times has he been knocked down, stabbed and suffered broken bones? Without Xichen, he wouldn't have lived as long as he did.
He owes him his life.]
I'm taking culinary classes. I want to cook for you when you are comfortable enough to receive it.
I am also considering an occupation in an art gallery. It wouldn't take me long to memorize the different art periods and artists.
[ Xichen isn't done with him. He is... hurt, on behalf of his brother, and his brother's chosen person, whom he failed to protect before. It would be even worse if Meng Yao tried to talk about Nie Mingjue.
But he can contain his anger. He can try to be there for Meng Yao in ways that he wasn't before, while trying to not reward things that Xichen believes Meng Yao shouldn't do. ]
It is not easy to learn how to treat people when you're not meant to control them, I think. I will remind you until you get used to it. You are no longer chief cultivator, merely an ordinary... ImPort, I suppose. An ordinary cultivator. Let go of trying to steer things into certain ways. Focus on healing.
These things are good, and... I think the lessons won't be in vain. But do try to enjoy them just for themselves, not only for me, and also with the occupation you choose. Do you think that possible?
[Oh what he would do to be tucked close to Xichen until the awful memories fade. He loves him more than ever and the intensity of the feelings makes him dizzy. Yet it is amazing that Xichen is speaking to him at all - and so kindly too. Meng Yao suppresses a sigh and smiles softly.]
I am only a man, Zewu-Jun. My name is Meng Yao - not Jin Guangyao. He perished in Guanyin Temple at the hands of Nie Mingjue.
I want to cook for myself too. A good diet will make all the difference in helping my body adjust to all of the changes.
I am an Import - if I exceed their expectations for the position, they will be tempted to hire me with or without this world's qualifications.
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I've never thought much about that.
But I will.
[How many times has he been knocked down, stabbed and suffered broken bones? Without Xichen, he wouldn't have lived as long as he did.
He owes him his life.]
I'm taking culinary classes. I want to cook for you when you are comfortable enough to receive it.
I am also considering an occupation in an art gallery. It wouldn't take me long to memorize the different art periods and artists.
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But he can contain his anger. He can try to be there for Meng Yao in ways that he wasn't before, while trying to not reward things that Xichen believes Meng Yao shouldn't do. ]
It is not easy to learn how to treat people when you're not meant to control them, I think. I will remind you until you get used to it. You are no longer chief cultivator, merely an ordinary... ImPort, I suppose. An ordinary cultivator. Let go of trying to steer things into certain ways. Focus on healing.
These things are good, and... I think the lessons won't be in vain. But do try to enjoy them just for themselves, not only for me, and also with the occupation you choose. Do you think that possible?
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I am only a man, Zewu-Jun. My name is Meng Yao - not Jin Guangyao. He perished in Guanyin Temple at the hands of Nie Mingjue.
I want to cook for myself too. A good diet will make all the difference in helping my body adjust to all of the changes.
I am an Import - if I exceed their expectations for the position, they will be tempted to hire me with or without this world's qualifications.