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[ze_uwu_jun]

You have reached Zewu-Jun. Please let me know how I can help.

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[yilingdaddy]

I know. It's appreciated, thank you.

[ze_uwu_jun]

You are welcome, young master Wei.

I am glad to know that you are there.

[yilingdaddy]

I just...needed time. I planned to come back I just...think I forgot to tell him that...

[ze_uwu_jun]

I think it would have been harder on you if you had promised. Another thing to shoulder.

He will not hold it against you, that you needed it.

[ Against himself, perhaps, but not against Wei Ying. ]

[dazzlingdream]

From what he has said, it is an old curse. He incurred it from a demon's poisoned blade.

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[shuanghuas]

I wished to thank you for the reading sessions. They have been most enjoyable.

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[ze_uwu_jun]

So they have been for me as well, Daozhang. Is there a topic you might be curious about next?

[ze_uwu_jun]

Ah.

I will do my best. If he should let you know in the future it is happening again, without seeking me out, please let me know. It seems it is something he will not bring up unless he has no choice.

[dazzlingdream]

I will alert you immediately. I was not aware of it until we spoke over the network; he has done a fair job of hiding it.

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[shuanghuas]

Not about reading no.


I was slightly concerned about my nephews... invitation post.

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[ze_uwu_jun]

... ah.

Yes, that went into a rather unpleasant direction.

Keeping quiet or keeping it locked would have been worse, however. Still, I am sorry you had to witness it.

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[shuanghuas]

It is not my business, I suppose - I am ignorant as to the big sects and their ... complications.

But I am concerned for you. For those who are hurt.

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[ze_uwu_jun]

I have written out what happened for Wangji, who has yet to live for it, and for young master Wei. If you should wish to know, or at least know the key parts of the situation, I will answer. I think... at least some of the things about it became painfully clear in that conversation.

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He never planned to harm me. I think that may be the most frightening of all, to be considered so far above anyone else to be safe.

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[shuanghuas]

The matter is clearly painful to you, Zewu-jun. I would not dare repay your kindness to me by asking you to relieve those memories. If you wish to talk I will listen but even not knowing the whole truth makes little difference to me. I know the type of person you are, that is enough.

I will not understand holding one life higher than another's. [ it goes against his principles and is...probably part of why he dislikes the big sects and the whole bloodline thing. ]

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[ze_uwu_jun]

You are kind beyond what I may deserve, Daozhang. I am more grateful than I can say.

And thank you - for understanding that. All lives are worth holding high.

[shuanghuas]

You have committed no crimes, only sought to do good. I cannot think you undeserving of any kindness, Zewu-jun.

They are.

[ze_uwu_jun]

[ Beeat...

Sorry, Jingyi, Xichen is really not back up to 100% yet.

Or even like. 30%.

But he is glad, and the cheer is very, very welcome. And he tries. ]

Are you sure we need to finish it all tonight? Not leaving some of it for breakfast?

[ He tries. ]

[ze_uwu_jun]

I... may not be that innocent as that, Daozhang. It may have been my lack of understanding [ because he cannot say 'blindness' to Xiao Xingchen ] rather than willingness to do ill, but ill was done...

But I try to do better now.

[shuanghuas]

Then, I am sorry for whatever happened. May you find peace here. As long as one tries to do better today than yesterday, is that not something to appreciate?

[ze_uwu_jun]

Thank you, Meng Yao.

I am glad that you get along.

[ze_uwu_jun]

[ Xichen closes his eyes on his end. His voice is very, very soft, though not too quiet. ]

Thank you, Daozhang. It might ... take a while before I can decide if I should, or I could, forgive myself. But that will not stop me from trying to do right.

It seems trusting too much is not wise, in the end. It allows one to be used, when placed in the wrong hands. But the choice to trust was... still mine.

[shuanghuas]

Peace is hard won. [ he is silent, taking in the confession of the other. ] Not trusting seems wiser but lonely, I would rather believe in a world that is good.

If someone misused your trust then the blame should be placed on that person, and trust revoked.

[ze_uwu_jun]

Trust has been revoked.

Feelings are... more complicated.

But trust...

For sixteen years, I trusted him. And I was wrong. How can I now trust my own judgment?

[shuanghuas]

In a sense you cannot, but that is not your fault. Trust is hard won and easily lost, you will find peace again. Eventually. But it may take some time.

Little by little you will see that your judgement is sound and your trust will return.

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[dazzlingdream]

Xue Yang has arrived. I have done what I can to caution him, but his skills are of concern.

He can resurrect the dead and I fully believe him capable of creating a Fierce Corpse.